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I had lunch with an old friend today...It was so refreshing to be social that I didn't want it to end...I have been in a funk...Not the sort of funk that keeps me from leaving the house...but the kind that keeps me awake at night...avoiding productivity around the house, avoiding the nurturing of creativity with the boys...It is a funk for sure!!!

I am just so alone...and at times I love that I am usually so happy as this isolated woman and mother here in these burbs...But some times it gets the best of me and I slip into this state with out the conscious decision to ignore it even...the realization and acceptance comes only after I have been here for days, sometimes weeks...Maybe my own denial...but non the less precious time is wasting...

Time to be the mother that I am so striving to be...time to keep my home a sanctuary of some sort...time to manifest my dreams...time to be present and grateful for all that I have and what I am trying to do by it!!!

No more belated February funk...I am coming alive again as is the spring...and I am going to be in full bloom before you know it...full bloom for this season that is...Gotta start some where...after all...

Every masterpiece was once a work in progress!!!

Mother Loaded!