Now I Lay Me Down.......

Okay so I do have a few plans for some future post but this just touched me and had to be written tonight...just a little something...

Scout had Cub Scouts tonight and so Pip and I had the night (bedtime) to our selves and I do usually try to take a little extra joy from those moments....So I crawled into his bunk bed instead of kneeling on the floor and snuggled and chatted for a while after our story...When we have these moments I usually repeat a few things that I consciously try to say every once in a while to both of my boys...Like, how grateful and happy I am that God gave me the important and special job of being their Mom...about how special we are to have Mother Lili as our guardian angel and how special it is for my boys to have two Mom's...etc...

(FYI...DH just mentioned tonight that people at the school could think I was a lesbian with all that "i have two moms" talk...when he noticed that it was stated for all to wonder on Scouts star student poster...thought that was pretty funny and worth sharing!!!!)

Back to tonight...Then we reminisced about past birthdays and about when we met and then something I am really proud of encouraging...Pip said prayers for us...

It is so easy to get into the habit of saying the same old same old prayer every night...and so I have always added my own little something at the end and lately I have encouraged the boys to say prayers for us instead of listening to me...Scout is still a little reserved about adding to the usual, but Pip no way...He couldn't be reserved if he wanted to be, at this point at least...

I had a moment tonight during his prayer...cried even...over loaded with love and gratitude about how lucky I am to have such special sweet boys as my own...I need these moments every once in a while...amongst the usual repeating of my self and such!!!

It's not word for word...because it is too hard for me to remember...but pretty much and in a nut shell...this is what he said...melts your heart...I know....

"now I lay me down to sleep pray the lord my soul to keep...If I should die before I wake, pray the lord my soul to take...the angels...I mean if I should live another day guide my way...angels watch me through the night, guide me to the morning light.........................................................................................

and please let nothing bad happen...be with people who don't know you...and all the people who have cancer...please don't let anyone die in the whole universe...and don't let any one die in Iraq...and don't let any ones house get bombed...and be with mister kitty and any cats who got thrown out for being bad...don't let him be being bad down stairs right now and be being in Dad's office...and be with uncle Matt...and don't let anything happen bad in the whole universe.................Amen"

I mean seriously...it doesn't get much cuter than that...and this comes from that son who was in trouble last weekend for whipping it out in his room and peeing in the corner on the carpet...and then not telling anyone until Scout happened to kneel in it later in the day!!!

Gratefully,

Mother Loaded

P.S. Pip's room is literally two steps, one in a half maybe, from his bathroom!!!!!!!!!

I'm Baaaaaaacccccckkk...with a Crazy Animal Update Too!!!

Well It has been a month and a crazy one at that...So here's an update for you and a vow of my return!!! Will follow with a juicy Christmas post tomorrow!!!

* OUT WITH THE OLD AND IN WITH THE NEW* At least when it comes to the pets in this house...It was expected when our Old Man Shadow Dog took his last walk about with no return...and then just so sudden and sad when we came home just weeks later to find that our sweet sweet China Cat had lost in a collision with a truck right in front of our drive way...Ironic and I think not just a coincidence that they left together really...They were good friends and we were grateful to have had them as a part of our family...They certainly won't be forgotten!!!

And so the story begins for a new addition to our family..."Mister" Kitty is his name and flea breeding his is game(the boys made that one up)... He is a pretty cute, crazy loved new member of our tribe!!!  It was totally fated that he came into our lives and because we loved our China so, there just isn't much hope for this kitty witty to not be just completely rotten!!! He has big paws to fill though!!! So, with no further ado I give you "Mister" kitty's Mother*Loaded debut...

Isn't he cute?!!!

Dog @ Large!!! CRAZY ANIMAL UPDATE

Well it appears that my last blog about our "poor old man" has become ironically bitter sweet...It's now been 5 days since we've seen that stinky, sweet old dog and I am just so sad that it had to be this way and I wish we would of had one last goodbye...It seems that I was right about him leaving us for the last time and at this point I am hoping that he's already past and not hungry cold or too weak to come home...I can tell that DH is sad...He had some very watery eyes when we spoke of it last night...I am trying to be extra sweet and loving...and  funny to cheer him up too...Which is why I asked how long he was going to leave the dried dog shit in our garage for sentimental value!!! 

On the plus side one other missing critter that I hadn't blogged about was discovered yesterday!..I found out about this missing creature, that was lurking who knows wear in my house, by accidental honesty which I was oh so happy about.  Turns out that Scout lost him over a week ago and "forgot" to mention it to DH and I...Yeah I was so happy to hear about this after the fact..."you mean to tell me that I have been letting you have sweets and play instead of cleaning your room and you were lying to us about Hermie the whole time?"  "I wasn't lying I just forgot!" "Yeah, I'm not buying it mister...when you forget to mention something that big it's called lying." Lucky for Scout...Pip found him under his bed before we enforced any type of good punishment for his forgetfulness...I am usually good about enforcing all types of punishments (especially when the victim is DH...his favorite is nipple tweaking.)  So, I think it's good to let a few things slide hear and there.  However, we are still having reminder conversations about how lucky he is that we didn't find the crab due to a foul dead crabby kind of stench through out our entire house...with out a clue of where the little crustaceans was put out of his misery!  Crabs are scavengers , so who knows how long it could have survived on it's own?..In this house, with my cleaning habits maybe years!!! 

We love you old man of a dog...Hope your looking down on us from doggy heaven where there's endless table scrapes...If not then get your ASS home so we can love on you before you are!!!

ML

Dog @ Large!!!

Here he is on a better day...In a better year...Our dear old man of a dog!!!

Oh the irony of paying for a dog at large ticket when your large dog is as old as Christmas and looks like with every step that he's going to croak with in the next minute!.He can hardly walk anymore yet he continues to go on walk abouts...So, as you could imagine I was just so thrilled to hear from DH once again that he had lost the dog on another rainy day when he would be leaving for out of town...Exactly the circumstances last time...Figures, He makes the mess and I'm stuck here to deal with it...The last one cost us $140!..and my sanity, when I had the most difficult time communicating with the hillbilly, dip spitting, tooth missing, animal control officer...It was a clear scary reminder of the fact that we ain't in the city or a college town no more!!!

Long story short...We had a misunderstanding about the ticket and my options to have it changed into DH's name so that I wouldn't have to give up my winnings in the field trip lottery...I never win anything and I was so excited to mine gold with Scout and the rest of the third grade!..When I finally ended up on the phone with the supervisor it wasn't my most gracious moment...and I have to admit when hill billy came to my door once more this evening to check and see if we found the old man yet...I felt kinda bad!  He didn't have our poor old crippled dog but was letting us know that he got a call and knew it had to be him!..It was nice of him to stop by and let us know (although I think it is his job) and I made sure that I very graciously thanked him for filling us in and keeping an eye out for him...

Now if I could just convince DH to stop letting him stumble off and while he's at it open up his eyes and see that our dear old Dog is miserably unhappy and doesn't want to be here anymore!

I don't know if he's wandering of in an effort to die or to punish DH for continuing to keep him around...I know this all might sound cold and harsh, but if you saw this dog for just one minute and felt his sad pathetic energy you would know that this here is just fact...When we drug him camping (not to far from the car either) last month, we literally had to carry him back...He literally would not get up when it was time to go...It was as if he was saying..."Just leave me, Just leave me here and let me go."

The poor poor thing can hardly walk and shits and pisses at random as if he never saw it comin...and I will embarrassingly add that since our move he went from a bona fide back yard dog...to a red neck dog on a rope, tied around a tree in our backyard (hence our new house did not come with a fence and we are too poor right now to build one)...It's horrible...and every time the poor old man looks at me with his sad empty eyes I just say that I am sorry and assure him that it's not my doing and that I love him!..

It really isn't my choice and I am glad for that...He is DH's dog and has been around for way longer than me...I can't imagine having to make it and I completely understand why DH is having such a tough time deciding what's right...But I assure you this...when I have sad empty eyes and I am peeing and shitting on my self...

Be grateful for what we had...say a prayer....kiss me good night...and send me home!..I'll be ready, I promise!!!

Come home our dear poor old dog...I'm worried about you tonight...It's dark and cold!

ML